Angelus I

Aaron

I had always had an angel. Not that I knew him as that. He was just the one that came to me when I was frightened. I remember him sitting in the chair with me. Singing me songs I didn’t know so I would not be afraid. And because of these songs I was never afraid. I was small, really little. There were many things I was afraid of. Then came the angel. It was my right to be scared of him, yet, there he was just to protect me. I came to realise that quickly. And when I saw him, that’s what I felt.

He was always present, even when I didn’t see him. There he was just singing to me. And because of him, I was not afraid. He never left me. Until she came.

He would always be with me, but until she came, he went away. I thought it was because she gave me love. Not the kind of love he’d given me, the normal kind of love. And I learnt to love her back.

I saw him watching me and seeing the love she gave to me. I learnt to know her name. Her name was Dalili. I was very little and I called her Lili. And I came to laugh and sing little songs to her. Some of the songs I gave were from him. So I saw him very little and I was a little sad because he did not come very often. Only at night when I was asleep, I felt his hand on my head and I would still feel the same love.

Then in time he came to me. He came to me that I was going to be alright. That he would still think of me and that he would protect me all my life. He was going to send me another angel to make sure I was alright. Just because he wouldn’t be there, didn’t mean he thought less of me. I was the only thing in his mind. Then he looked at me with those great big gold eyes. I thought I saw sadness in them. I thought I saw the woman in his eyes. He was even sadder. He laid his hand on my head and I felt that he would love me forever. And then, then he was gone.

I never knew he came to save me. I only felt his arm holding me, holding her. He took us to a place far away. He held us in his arms and I felt we were flying. I felt how the hair on my head felt when the winds blew it in every direction. I put my arms around his neck and sighed. I closed my eyes and I was in heaven.

We arrived and I opened my eyes. I never knew he had wings. Oh they were mighty wings. They were almost black. They were a different kind of black. The kind of black in your dreams. The kind of black where you’re not afraid because they’re the good kind of black.  I loved the look of his nearly black wings. I was glad his wings had lifted me to come to this good place.

Then he let me go from his arm. And he let Dalili go. She looked at his very fine wings with her mouth opened. He closed his wings very slowly.  He was looking at her with her hand in front of her mouth. Then he unwrapped his wings with a quick flutter, he stepped back from us and vanished.